First let me start off with this, its not eloquent or deep
but I have to get it off my chest: cancer sucks! Every kind, every time in
every person! It just does. Now that I’ve said that let me tell you about one
of the special people in my life I am dedicating this fundraiser too. I don’t
want this to be a sad story to bring down anyone’s day but I can’t do something
like this without even mentioning why I am so driven to raise money for this
cause. There have been quite a few people in my distant family who have been
affected with cancer but they were all older and I was younger and I didn’t
really know them well. But there have been two that hit really close and here’s
one of their stories. Almost 7 years ago, it would strike someone very close to
me. Lets go back just a little. I am from a family of three girls. We don’t
have a brother but we do have a boy cousin that was five years younger than me.
He was always the know it all, pesky little cousin, that loved to just pester
the Hell out of you with a big grin that you couldn’t help but love! We loved
him like a brother. Every time we would pull up to Nana’s house he would be up
in the tree out front waiting for us in nothing but his underroos!! (Until he
grew up and then he was too cool to act like he was excited to see us). We spent
many summers riding around in the country on four wheelers. Falls playing in
the trailers full of cotton. Almost 7 years ago, I was hanging out at my brother in laws house and I got a
call from my Papa. I talk to Papa and Nina all the time, so this was nothing
out of the ordinary except that when I answered he was crying. All he could
choke out what we think Mathew has cancer. What!! Where in the world did that
come from! What are you talking about! I just freaked out. He hasn’t been sick.
His 18th birthday is tomorrow! He’s Mr. Perfect! No way could this
be happening. It didn’t seem real but I immediately just knew he’s going to be
fine. The next day, on his 18th birthday, he was officially diagnosed.
He had lymphoblastic lymphoma. There was no doubt in my mind if anyone could
beat it Mathew could. The next few months would be really hard but they would
also be months I will cherish forever. Growing up Dianna and Mathew had always
been the dynamic duo. They were one year apart. They traveled together and were
really close. But this time was our time. I was in Shreveport teaching and
Tyler was in med school. Mathew did his chemo and treatments at LSU in
Shreveport. Every time he was in town doing another round of treatment, I was
there, every day after school and on the weekends. Except the one day I missed
because we had a late meeting at school and I had something that afternoon, so
I didn’t go up to the hospital. I was reprimanded badly for not coming “You
didn’t even call!!” Man he sounded like a needy boyfriend but it just validated
the fact of how much he loved me stopping by. Daily deliveries of Jonny’s
Pizza, chick fil a, DVDs or anything else his needy self demanded. Sitting on
his bed reading lists of terrible names people named their babies, knitting
hats, walking laps around the hospital floor, constant teasing me of anything
and everything. He once asked me when I walked in the room. Man why is your
hair so greasy! Excuse me sir but its wet because I just got out of the shower
but didn’t have time to dry it because your highness was demanding a pizza
pronto! These are some of the memories, despite the circumstances, I will
remember forever. After months of treatment, we thought he had it beat. We all
celebrated him being in remission and watched him give his valedictorian speech
at graduation. We were thrilled to pack him up and send him to Tulane. He was
working with the baseball trainers and was getting stronger by the day so he
could make it on the team. He was loving the college life for the short time he
was able to go. Because soon enough the cancer would be back and with a
vengeance. He made it less than two months of college and then was back home
and in the hospital fighting for his life. Days before he lost that fight, we
celebrated Thanksgiving. Mathew and Tyler went hunting Thanksgiving morning and
killed Tyler’s first deer! We all knew but weren’t accepting the fact that this
was going to be his last. Dianna and I went over and spent the weekend with
him. Laid up on the couch, laughing telling stories and making fun of all the
medicine and herbs he was taking. One was made of flowers and we joked he was
going to have petunias growing from his peach fuzz on his head! We rode around
on four wheelers like we had done so many times growing up. This time was
different. As we rode around, Dianna and I following behind him, watching his
every move and soaking up every second. We knew but yet we didn’t know. We had
no idea less than two days later he would be taken from us. I never doubted
that he would beat it. I saw the ESPN stories during the college world series,
as he took the mound to pitch. Reliving his battle and celebrating his victory.
When Tyler walked in my room at school followed by our coordinator and said
“Hurry we need to go right now to the hospital”, I finally accepted what was
happening. I told him I loved him and how thankful I was for the last few
months. I will never understand why God chose to take him. He should be in his
third year of med school. I should have been able to watch him play many more
baseball games (even though he said I was bad luck because they always lost
when I was there). God has a greater plan and I don’t understand it and
honestly I don’t really like it or agree with it. But I accept it partly
because I have no choice. He was an amazing kid. Who knew everything and let
you know! If he was wrong he would find a away to spin it and make it right! He
loved the Lord and wasn’t afraid to say it. I miss him all the time. People ask
me why Caleb’s middle name has one T (Mathew) instead of two. Because the
person he was named after had one T. I see so much of Mathew in Caleb!! Its
scary! Sometimes I swear Mathew is whispering things in Caleb’s ear to do to
drive me crazy!! I
know he’s watching over us. I know he’s in a much better place but I miss him
anyway! So that is why when I saw this month Pampered Chef was doing
fundraisers for the American Cancer society, I felt so drawn to raise money,
raise awareness and tell Mathew’s story again. Thanks for letting me ramble.
Go to my website
Under host enter Monica Auschwitz
There’s lots of awesome
products to make cooking fun and easy. And know that this month up to 25% will
go to help fight cancer. Get some Christmas shopping done early. Scratch some
names off your list. Get some products to help you make and serve your holiday
feasts. Help me reach my goal of $1000 in sales. Do it for Mathew and everyone
else who fight this battle
Here are some pictures I had on my computer. I tried to narrow it down and just couldn't cut any out!
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| My graduation from LSU |
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| Playing "In cahoots" He was so proud of me for figuring it out!! |
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| Valedictorian speech |
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| I don't know why all his graduation pictures are blurry |
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| Always had to be the tallest! |
I really hate these are blurry! Maybe because this day was such a blur! I need to get these from someone! These were from Thanksgiving.
These were from my wedding
Dad and Kathryn's wedding beginning of October. He looked so good!
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| Oh I wish!! This was a camp he went to but I would have loved for him to have played there!! |
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| Oh that look! The you are doing it wrong you're stupid look :) |
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| Can I add show off to his list of characteristics :) |
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| I miss this smile! |
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